Taking a Short Break

I hope to get back to weekly updates soon. I had to take a break due to a crushing sense of failure since I was not doing well with sticking to my habits. Some may say I was trying to do too much at once, and they may be right.

However, time seems to be speeding up. I don't know where the 2 years since I turned 50 went already! And with recent health news, my sense of time running out is growing. It's now or never, at least in terms of my biggest habit failures - eating healthy, consistently exercising, and losing weight (the last being a goal failure, not a habit, per se).

Since my last post, a neighbor who was my age passed away in his sleep of cardiac arrest. It was shocking and incredible sad, as he leaves behind 2 college-aged children. Finding out I may have heart disease (which I was almost sure was inevitable for me given my eating habits and family history) has me spooked and anxious. Nothing like being scared straight to finally start sticking to healthy habits. The thought of not being here for my kids, especially my teenage daughter is unfathomable.

I'll do a proper post in 2 weeks after I find out just how poorly I've treated my body for the last 35 years. In the meantime, I've cut out of 99% sugar, 95% processed carbs, and have started tracking my food so I can cut down on fat.

And trying hard not to think about the shoulda's and if only's...